Capture Your Grief – Day 1: Sunrise

Byron Bay Lighthouse, NSW, Australia, 5.25am
Byron Bay Lighthouse, NSW, Australia, 5.25am

Last night I went to bed willing myself to hear the early alarm. Surprisingly I awoke and heard the rooster crow at 4.30am before my alarm did go off.

I was lucky enough to have my enthusiastic first born who wanted to watch the sunrise with me. We drove the thirty minutes to the lighthouse and when we got there I was speechless. One lane heading away from the lighthouse was completely filled with parked cars. I have been to watch the sunrise a few times up there but I’ve never seen so many people. There was close to one hundred people quietly watching the magnificent sight. The first people in Australia to watch our sun rise.

Lennox Head, NSW. 6.30am
Lennox Head, NSW. 6.30am

This year as I watched the sun come up over the ocean amongst the pretty dusty pink clouds I smiled. This years journey is a new one. This is the first time I’ve watched the sunrise at the lighthouse, not as a tourist, but as a local because we now finally live here.

Today marks the first day of my Capture Your Grief journey that I feel my grief, my Charlize journey and my life with my family has reached a peacefulness.

Because of her, today I can tell you the exact way the sun rise looked, as the first rays of light gently touched the ocean in segments and it glistened like gold.

Because of her, today I can tell you the exact way it smelt. Like a soft salty breeze with a dash of forest freshness.

Because of her, today I can tell you the exact way it sounded. When those first moments of light caused the birds in the nearby hinterland to sing with glee. And because she knew we were watching today, under the gold glistening ocean emerged a gentle sea creature who ever so slightly blew air through his spout and rose delicately in unison with his mate out of the water and back under again. Up and down we watched as they headed south on their journey this time.

Because of her, today I can tell you the exact way I felt. It was like the most important moment in my day was happening right in front of me. Because I am thankful for all these amazing every day occurances that we so often take for granted.

Right beside me stood my beautiful boy who is the reason I am a mum and who helped guide me on my initial journey of parenthood. This little man standing beside me was so quiet (a rarity for him), then he looked at me and said ‘It feels like we just watched something really special together Mummy.’

Yes my darling boy, we really did!!

P.S. Because we couldn’t get enough of the gorgeous sunrise today we stopped at Lennox Headland and took a beautiful picture and spotted six more whales. When we got home the sun magically lit up our property so we have a few more to share xx

Stephens On Tregeagle, NSW, Our Home. 7.01am
Stephens On Tregeagle, NSW, Our Home. 7.01am
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